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Crowded House

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“There is freedom within, there is freedom without
Try to catch the deluge in a paper cup ”

I think I have reached my limit.  Boxes have started to creep into all of our rooms.  The never ending cycle of phone calls from insurance companies to attorneys.  The beginning of the goodbyes.  My head is kind of a mess right now.  When I have a second to catch up on the massive to do list, I seem to just zone out or walk aimlessly around the house trying to put things where they used to belong.  Part of me loves this change.  We have done this many times now, Wil and I, and there’s a familiarity to it that I find comfort in.  Also, there is a complete chaotic feeling to this which I do not do well with.

Having a house was touch and go this past week as things got a little rocky when dealing with important details.  Then, the painter gasped as he talked to me on the phone about the condition of the walls.  Having only seen the house we just bought two times and both times with furniture and pictures in it, I have no idea what to expect. I have learned many important lessons about buying a home.




Goodbyes….sigh.  We had our last movie night at Good Shepherd and attended a party where we celebrated many things including our time here on Lookout.  Wil did his last 5 o’clock Sunday service and I think we both are just ready.  Everything I do, in the back of my head I know it is the last time I’ll do them in Chattanooga.  All these details and little things will come and go and we are just ready…..nothing like peeling a band aid off slowly.

And then there’s the joy I see in Lilly and Willow.  Lilly told me today that our new grocery store is called the “Piggy Wiggy.”  I just laughed.




Gnashing of Teeth, Rolling of Eyes

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We had our first battle over an object the other night in the tub.   Lilly had a cup, Willow wanted the cup, tug of war commenced, gnashing of teeth was heard and the winner of the battle was mommy.  Along with the “it’s mine” mind set comes a new level of intelligence.  Lilly is a very good child.  I really can’t complain BUT things do happen of course.  Today, Lilly decided to use the potty which is good.  Thing is, she decided to use the potty on our porch.  Knowing she had done the deed, I set her up for disaster by asking an obvious question.  I asked her if she had “done her business” on the porch and she, without flinching or looking away said, “I didn’t do it.  It must be a squirrel.”  It took me a second because I was just not expecting a lie.   I could see her nose growing in front of my eyes and it made me sad.  Sure, peeing on the porch isn’t stellar but the lying about it hurt me because it marks a beginning and it also shows me that she is as emotional right now as I am.  Well, things got worse as the punishment was handed out but we survived.

Willow had her 9 month check up and she is doing great!  Two teeth have emerged, she’s pulling up and she got the green light for whole milk.  Crankiness and some light sleep accompany this period of growth but it is bittersweet because she’s really growing quickly.

Our house has begun to fill up with boxes and stacks of things.  I have mentally decorated and redecorated our new house.  Schedules and calendars are filling up.  Must be almost time to move on…….

A Father of a Post

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Some of us are lucky enough to have fathers in our lives.  We all have fathers but it seems that so often, they are absent from our stories.  Father’s Day is an awesome day because it reminds us all of our fathers and I am reminded of how great the dads are in my life.

This whole moving thing has been a foggy reality.  We were all kind of just waiting for the Greece trip to happen and now that it has, we are realizing that we move in less then a months time.  There are still many questions about our destination and many things we need to do here before we leave.  I start thinking about it all and I get a little light headed so I am just living minute to minute.

Wil’s trip to Greece went very well and so smooth.  If you’d like to read and see the adventure, click HERE

While Wil was overseas, Kei Kei took the girls to Perdido Key for a nice trip to visit Ms. Allyson.  I was completely spoiled with lots of food and lounging but Willow managed to break some wine glasses and wake up at 5am every day.  Her crawling made the relaxing part a little less relaxing.  Never-the-less, it was fun to get away and I love Gulf water.

Lilly loved spending time with Kei Kei and playing dress up games but looked forward to Wil’s return, asking about him periodically and also asking about our new home at the beach.  Upon our arrival, when Lilly saw Wil, it was like slow motion running for a hug and joy radiated.

Wil brought us back wonderful gifts and Lilly asked him to bring her back a lollipop….and he did!

As Willow’s teeth grow and she pulls up, as Lilly learns and sings her little songs, as Wil starts the goodbyes to all his connections and friends at church and as I wrap up our lives here and get our lives ready to go, we all look forward to new beginnings and love that we have added so many friends.